One in progress...three to go

Just one loss is too many, in my book.

I hate when I see so much in one week arrive on my doorstep!

There is a lot going on and I hope to have these back as quickly as possible.

(((((HUGS)))))

Frequently Asked Questions

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FREQUENTLY ASKED QUESTIONS!!!

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Struggling

For some reason I am struggling with the latest two blankets.

Between internet lines cut.  

A few storms interfering with the internet. 
Random computer shut downs due to a quirky backup battery/power surge combo.

I am beyond frustrated. 

Did I mention that my Mac keeps shutting down my Windows parallel program?

  Doesn't my Mac know that I need it for my Embroidery Software?!??!

And it hasn't helped that it has been a crazy week of sick boys, no school, half days, and you name it, it happened...kind of week..

I feel HORRIBLE mommas.  I am hoping that things are looking brighter tomorrow!

Survivor

 

My Mom is a survivor, 

Or so I've heard it said. 

But I can hear her crying at night 

When all others are in bed. 

I watch her lay awake at night 

And go to hold her hand. 

She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand.

But like the sands on the beach

That never was away... 

I watch over my surviving mom, 

Who thinks of me each day. 

She wears a smile for others... 

A smile of disguise! 

But through Heaven's door I see 

Tears flowing from her eyes. 

My mom tries to cope with my death 

By keeping my memory alive.

But anyone who knows her knows 

It is her way to survive. 

As I watch over my surviving mom 

Through Heaven's open door...

I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more. 

I know that doesn't help her... 

Or ease the burden she bears. 

So if you get a chance, go visit her... 

And show her that you care. 

For no matter what she says... 

No matter what she feels. 

My surviving mom has a broken heart 

That time 

WON'T EVER HEAL.

 

Found this poem on Facebook today. 

Madison

Butterfly Kisses aren't just for blankets.

How about a sweet, tiny baby gown?

My heart always aches when the feetprint are so tiny.  

Smaller than my finger to my second knuckle.

For the crocheted blanket?  

A hand stitched applique.  Momma can clip it off if she just doesn't like it...no damage!

  I just could not only do the gown!

12 Days of Christmas

I am TERRIBLE!

I have been following, but haven't shared with my own followers!!

Come check out the posts at Small Bird Studios.  

Francesca is hosting a special blog hop that is supposed to keep you busy through the holidays.

I have already spied a few "friends" that I know!

Come and join everyone in finding Hope during this very difficult season for babyloss mommas!

Words of Courage

A question asked by a fellow babyloss mom:

"Words of Courage. 

Any come to mind for a particularly cloudy day full of missing her?"

Dear sweet Laura,

I wish I could tell you the perfect answer.  I will just tell you what I do when I have a cloudy day.  

I DON'T FIGHT IT!

I curl up with her quilt.

I sometimes grab her teddy.

See her sitting on the memory box?  Yes, she is a girl!

I sometimes pull out her scrapbook just so I can see her.

I put a sad movie in.  Steel Magnolias if I am feeling like I need to "Go Sally" on someone.   Tinkerbell because that is the Disney character I associate her with.  I would have watched Tinkerbell to the end of time with her.  

Lately,  Rabbit Hole has been working for me. 

It helps me remember that my husband is grieving too, just in a different way.

But my point in all of this? 

It is that I allow myself to have the cloudy day once in awhile.  

If I try to fight through it...things only get worse for me....

((((((((HUGS))))))))))