I thought this would be easy to answer, but it ended up being unclear to me.
My immediate reaction was that I do take time. I sew, quilt, craft, and blog. I go on scrapbook retreats.
However, on the other hand, it is often disjointed, hurried, and frantic. I sometimes feel like I am rushing through it all.
I go get my hair done and nails done on occasion, but haven't had a facial in over two years. Even when I do take that time, I have lists in hand, schedules to plan as I sit there. I am anxious to get home because I fear that I am needed.
When I am scrapbooking, I am working towards a goal. Get it finished.... get it finished...chants through my head. I try to take every moment to make sure I arrive home feeling accomplished, when I really should come back rested.
I think the only time I actually take time for myself is in the dark hours of night. When all I can hear are the quiet sighs and snores in the house. I sit and watch TV. Sometimes, I crossstitch, do hand sewing work, or even sew.
But sometimes, I just do nothing and stare at the TV.
Is that time for myself? I am not sure...
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